Home

Home.. I don't understand this word anymore... I Googled it and it cam up with several definitions.. these are just two of them:

where you live at a particular time & place where something began and flourished

Personally I think a home is not just where you live, it is more to how you feel about the place and what happened there...

To me where I grew up and where my family was happy is what i call home. When things go wrong, it is where i long to be.

I know that if I lived there now i would not fit. I would probably hate it. But that is because the people are no longer there. They were the ones that kept me safe.

I think that my trust flourished there. I think that is why it is my home. As I moved on, other places, my trust was certainly broken lots, and the memories hurt.

So to be where this happened reminds me of the hurts, and it is not somewhere where I can be safe anymore... it is not my home.. People fight, and things go so wrong.. That is not my home.. Home is where your heart is... I need to find where my heart fits.. I find it fits with Children. I want to help them develop a good sense of trust.. I don't want them to grow up not knowing the same love i was blessed with, I want them to find a home in the heart of Jesus, and for them to give Jesus a home in their hearts...

anyways,... thats my thoughts tonight... O_o something to think about...

"i think its inside of u, not where u are.. its feeling like u belong, and knowing where u fit in to God's plan , and knowing that the ultimate home is with him

like if ur angry and frustrated or whatever u wont fit anywherre, and if u feel at peace u can call anywhere home, as long as theres love there, and God is love" - One of my smart friends....

The lost sheep

I wrote this for my preschool group, but I think it has relevance!



There once was a shepherd, he has 100 sheep!
One day when he was counting them, he discovered one was missing!
So he left the other 99 to search for this one sheep.
He looked, and he looked... Eventually he found the missing sheep.
He picked it up, and carried it back to the others.
The shepherd was so happy! He invited all his friends over, and had a party!!

Did you know we are like sheep?
God loves and cares for each of us....
In this world, we are lost.
When just one of us is found, God is so happy!
He throws a huge party in Heaven!

Luke 15..

Good bye - Hello

Don't say Goodbye - Skillet

Things are changing
It seems strange and
I need to figure this out
You've got your life
I got mine
But you're all I cared about
Yesterday we were laughing
Today I'm left here asking
Where has all the time gone now
I'm left alone somehow
Growing up and getting older
I don't want to believe it's over

Don't say goodbye
Cause I don't wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it's not the end for you and I
And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say goodbye

Do you remember
In December
How we swore we'd never change
Even though you're leaving
Thought our feelings
Would always stay the same
I wish we could be laughing
Instead I'm standing here asking
Do we have to end this now
Can we make it last somehow
We both know what we've gotta say, not today
Cause I don't wanna leave this way

And if it's over
It hurts but I'm giving you my word
I hope that you're always
Happy like we were
Happy like we were

Yesterday we were laughing (if you're gonna say goodbye)
Today I'm left here asking (if you're gonna say goodbye)
And although we knew this time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say goodbye

Nothing in this life lasts forever. Someday we will have to say goodbye to things.

Some things are easier to say goodbye... But somethings are so hard to let go of...

Letting go is something you will have to do in life.

One of the hardest things I've had to let go of was a friendship...

I met them about two and a half years ago..

She was the best friend I had ever had since moving to Auckland a few years before..

We had the best times together, doing all sorts of fun things together!!

As I was more open and honest about who I was and so was she, we grew closer together.

Eventually I felt comfortable telling her stuff I was going through, that I didn't want others to know. She was fine with me at first, but she wasn't fine with what I was doing.

So she started distancing herself from me.

It was so hard to face, when I needed a friend most, they would walk out on me.

I understand now why she would have left. I was dumping stuff on her some of the time, and she had her own problems. Also I was somewhat pushing my beliefs of vegetarianism on her. It was a slow process, but it got to the point when she would totally ignore me whenever I talked to her.

I still wanted her in my life, because I had nobody else.

Well, so I thought.. Through it all, I had forgotten the best friend I had..

God.

I started trying to spend more time with Him when I was lonely.

When I really needed a friend I called out to Him.

One Sunday I was at night church, my youth pastor, and another person prayed with me for a vegetarian friend for me...

Within a few weeks, a new girl turned up to the other church I go to in the morning..

(Long story why I go to two churches...).. Mum had been talking to her mum through some homeschooling thing.. and so my mum forced me to talk to her..

It was so awkward at first, but within a month we were like wow - Bestest Buddys!

She was an answer to that prayer. God is faithful.

If I had spent all my energy chasing after the old friendship, I would have never seen this new one.

I am still open to be friends with her, but I know it can never go back to how it was.

So what am I trying to say?

God is faithful. We are not doing this alone.

We need to let go when the time is right, and face the direction we are walking in.

"It is good for me to be near you. I choose you as my protector, and I will tell about your wonderful deeds." Psalm 73:28 (CEV)

Friendship

Well someone asked me to write about friendship. So here i am typing!

"He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm. "Proverbs 13:20

Friends are valuable in life, without them you can feel quite lonely. I know that from my own experiences.

The type of people you have as friends is so important.

As it says in Proverbs 13:20 (see above). Friends that are wise will make you wise, but hanging out with fools will hurt you.

In other words, you end up being like the ones you hang out with all the time.

So if you hang out with the crowd who smokes, most likely you will start smoking.

If you hang out with the crowd who goes to church, you will probably end up going to church.

If you have a friend who wags at school, you might start doing it too.

Get the drift?

As you spend more time with your friends you will act more like them.

Like for me, My voice sounds just about the same as one of my best friends! This so shows how long I spend talking to her.

I am thankful she is a wise, and kind, and she stands up for what she believes in.

She is the type of Person I want to be around, because I know she is not about to get me to do something that will get me in trouble.

On the other hand, I used to have friends who weren't as awesome as her.

At the time I thought they were the best thing in the world. But I look back and see, all they did was cause pain.

They effected a lot of my decisions back then, they were not good decisions, and I still have to deal with the consequences 4 - 5 years later.

The friends you have are so important! Choose friends that are good influences, not bad.

Also while I'm on the topic of friends, remember the phrase: To have a friend, you must be a friends.

That phrase is so true. Nobody wants to be friends with someone who doesn't be friendly back.

It is a two-way thing. A relationship goes both way.. Not Give, Give, Give. Or Take. Take, Take.

As well as trying to make sure you have the right kind of friends, it doesn't mean we shouldn't be friendly with people who are not exactly making the best choices, they do need friends who will care for them too. But make sure your main friendship circle has good influences in it.

I don't know quite how to end this so forgive me please, as I am no very good at blogs yet. Ending it here! Bai!

Peace out! X