Well again I don't quite know what I am writing here.....

*sits for about 15 minutes staring at at the screen thinking..*

OK, well I heard this song on Sunday at EPM... Someone sung it so awesomely, I was awestruck from the lyrics of the song, and have listened to it over and over again..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIfuYyBAlRU&feature=avmsc2

What am I?

I realized in the last few days, I am actually only a person. I should not be going on at God about how things are not going as "planned" because I am actually human, and He is God. I don't actually have the right to go around saying I don't like you anymore cause this is not going my way!! I should be thankful for what God has already done in my life, and is doing, ad is going ot do.. Even if I can not see it.

well, this is my ponderings for now...

BUT I WANT THAT GOD!

I am so glad that I serve a God who doesn't always give me what I want.

Cause if He did, well... Life would SUCK!

Today I am putting it very bluntly.

God knows the plans He has for us. We don't know His full plan.

So when we ask for stuff to happen that is not what God completely wants , we stop asking for His perfect plan.

Would this really help?

Doing what we think is best, instead of what God wants?

Over the years I've asked for many things from God.

A lot of them, what I wanted for my life, not what was His plan.

I realize now, that if He had given me what I had asked for, I wouldn't have been able to continue on now.

I would have not been about to handle the stress.

Also I wouldn't have been able to do the stuff He had planned, which was even better!

God has better plans for my life, than I have. I need to learn to surrender to His Will. His Perfect Will.

Ask yourself "Am I asking for what God wants, or what I want?"