Well again I don't quite know what I am writing here.....

*sits for about 15 minutes staring at at the screen thinking..*

OK, well I heard this song on Sunday at EPM... Someone sung it so awesomely, I was awestruck from the lyrics of the song, and have listened to it over and over again..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIfuYyBAlRU&feature=avmsc2

What am I?

I realized in the last few days, I am actually only a person. I should not be going on at God about how things are not going as "planned" because I am actually human, and He is God. I don't actually have the right to go around saying I don't like you anymore cause this is not going my way!! I should be thankful for what God has already done in my life, and is doing, ad is going ot do.. Even if I can not see it.

well, this is my ponderings for now...

Time slips away

Yesterday someone asked what it was like to be thirteen.

I began to think back.

I thought back to one of the hardest years of my life.

2008.

In this year I went the highest, and fell the lowest.

In this year I was baptized and felt fantastic.

I made my first friend, after three years.

I started going to a Bible study.

Also:

I was very depressed, and hated everything about myself.

I tried to kill myself on many occasions. Once almost succeeding.

Only by the amazing timing of God am i alive.

This got me thinking.

It feels like only yesterday I was turning thirteen.

But I have changed a whole lot!

I don't quite know what I am going on about.

(I should really think it through before I start typing)

I guess I am trying to say, make the most of your time.

You choose if you use it for good, or for bad.

If you choose to waste it, you can't get it back.

So as time goes by:

Use it to the FULL extend to what God has GIVEN it to you for.

"The clock is running. Make the most of today. Time waits for no man. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it is called the present."

Only Today

Whatever I may want to do
It must be done today.
There is no other time.

Yesterdays are but todays
Used and gone beyond my grasp.
Not one can ever be brought back;

Even as a bell can't be unrung
Or a spoken, unintended word
Be readily retrieved before
It reaches someone's ear.

Tomorrows are todays awaiting birth.
Each comes unbidden in the night
To arrive full-fledged for me to use
And do whatever I may want to do.

BUT I WANT THAT GOD!

I am so glad that I serve a God who doesn't always give me what I want.

Cause if He did, well... Life would SUCK!

Today I am putting it very bluntly.

God knows the plans He has for us. We don't know His full plan.

So when we ask for stuff to happen that is not what God completely wants , we stop asking for His perfect plan.

Would this really help?

Doing what we think is best, instead of what God wants?

Over the years I've asked for many things from God.

A lot of them, what I wanted for my life, not what was His plan.

I realize now, that if He had given me what I had asked for, I wouldn't have been able to continue on now.

I would have not been about to handle the stress.

Also I wouldn't have been able to do the stuff He had planned, which was even better!

God has better plans for my life, than I have. I need to learn to surrender to His Will. His Perfect Will.

Ask yourself "Am I asking for what God wants, or what I want?"

This is your life

Watch this - http://www.tangle.com/view_video?viewkey=24dd1977661aa0b64331

It is the best Video ever!!!!

Following God's purpose = Peace

"You, Lord, give true peace to those who depend on you, because they trust you." - Isaiah 26:3

Everyone's life has a purpose. God created each of us with one uniquely planned out for just us.

He used no molds, He hand-crafted you.

He desires us to follow the purpose He made for our lives.

To prosper us, not to harm us. (Jeremiah 29:11)

There is a slight problem though..

Us humans seem to think that our plan is better...

When really we have no idea what we are doing!

Have you noticed that when we run everything and don't fully rely on God, things fall apart?

Maybe not straight away, but they seem to eventually.

That is because our plans are designed by a fallen race, who actually have no idea what they are doing (meaning humans..)

When you depend on God's purpose for your life, you will find peace.

It is not always easy, and it will bring hardship.. But Depending on God will bring you peace.

Purpose and peace go together....

I challenge you to step back and look at your life and see where you are trying to run the show....

and then surrender it to God, ask for His purpose in your life.. And then Follow it.

Identity

"Do not be shaped by this world; instead be changed within by a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to decide what God wants for you; you will know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect." - Romans 12:2

Who's voice you listen to, defines your identity.

The world might identify you as: Stupid, Fat, Ugly, Dumb, Emo, Unloved, Unaccepted, Dirty, Filthy.

The identity the world gives you is based on your actions, and looks.

Maybe you are used to this identity from the world...

But...

What you do or how you look, does not define your identity in God.

Jesus identifies you as: Loved, Accepted, Belonging, Beautiful, Being Sanctified.

Let God define your identity, Not the World.

For it was God who created you for a purpose, not the world!

So who's voice are you going to choose to listen to today?

God? or The world?

(Based on a sermon @ Epm on 11th April 2010)

Plans

"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." -

Jeremiah 29:11

God has an amazing beyond words plan for my life, and for your life.

A plan to prosper you and give you hope and a future. That is God's plan.

But wait, what is our plan? Is it what God intends? Or is it only what you want?

Do we sit in the drivers seat in our life, saying "Hey God, why aren't I prospering? I am going down all the paths I think I should. I'm following all the plans I made for me"

I know I struggle to give God the wheel and say, " Hey God, this is your seat, and you know that way, can you please drive?"

We don't just need to share our plans with God, we need to give them to Him, and let Him decide, "This is what you are doing my child." And when He says that, Surrender to Him.